You know, it's not only Korean/Jap boybands song lyrics that don't make sense.

Mmhmm but yes, Amanda alerted me to a very, pleasantly surprising magazine cover with Yabu Kota on it. And he looks good.



Yeah okay if you don't know him you wouldn't really care, but hey. You'd have stopped reading, too. -.-

My parents are currently still in their YB craze, which is kind of freaky, for parents, but, um. Okay.
I kind of get it, because it is a really good drama. Loopholes aside. Acting and directing is awesome. (:
And really, real.

Good drama! (: And Bloody Monday 2 is coming yeahhhh :D
My mum is in love with Jang Geun Suk now. We've been watching all of his movies and past dramas.
He's cute. At least we can fangirl the same person. :D :D :D

I think my family is damn strange. I should stop swearing.

Don't swear!

HSJ photobook ran out. I want to kill something. Oh well.
But I got a really cute planner (expensive, but cute!) with Disney characters in it.
Even though I already have a (heavy) planner. Whatever. Shut up. Went shopping at Orchard on Tuesday, alone. It was fun. I blew about 200 bucks on magazines and planners and music :D :D :D That I already have softcopies of.
I am hoping to spend a lot at Thailand. Bringing 500 plus, to spend all of it in Bangkok when we go CHRISTMAS SHOPPING (:
Awesome.

Packing now, actually. I have too many clothes to bring.

I think I grew taller. Or a lot fatter.
Probably a combination of both. But a lot my clothes don't fit anymore! It's very depressing.
And self-esteem harming. I should probably just stop trying all of them on x)

Oh well. I love Westlife they're so soothing.

You know, it's funny how as children we vest emotional value onto things, and when we grow up we realise that they're not anything special. Except to us.
Is it better to keep looking at it like it's special, or 'grow up' and just view it as it is?

I think I'm growing up! I had a horrible dream yesterday about having my own children (thanks to Baby and I, I think) and going on this trip with my parents and brother (who was like, the same age -.- -.-) and I had to go off on my own with my kids and I left them somewhere to do something, and somehow I lost my passport and money and I was panicking so badly.
D:
My parents and brother are leaving for Taiwan. Before me. That kinda sucks, nobody will be there to see me off. !!
But it makes sense that they're going somewhere, I guess.

I am travelling on my own! (kinda)
It's scary. But it will be less scary after this trip because I've done it before. :D
Baby steps.

Lalala okay bye. Packingggg. :D

You know how songs stick in your head for like, forever?

Anyway I am horrified at myself, I have not done ANYTHING of my holiday homework. Save a bit of Chemistry revision.
I understand redox now.

Okay shut up.

Nobody interesting is online now, I think macmessenger is screwing up because I went online and suddenly like 20+ people went from online to offline.
Ah.

I wish I could write well. Like, well well such that I do not end up stuck because I don't have the right vocabulary.
But I suppose it comes with practice, and it's not fair since I never practise.
I am reading Emma now. (: I got a compilation of Jane Austen novels and I WILL READ THEM.
:D

Oh oh NYC boys were invited to Kohaku :D :D :D And Arashi. I think it's stupid (for the former, I am happy for the latter! :D :D) but oh well. DBSK is going too but I'm not sure I'm excited for it seeing their latest performance. ):
In a way it's good that they're not pretending everything's okay and acting for the cameras, but it's sad that they're divided! DD: Was watching DBSK videos with Lidan the other day and they - are - so - cute. Big difference.
)))))): DBSK is epic.

I WANT TO KILL SOMETHING.

Ahh okay nevermind, happier things.
Um. My family is going to Taiwan and Hong Kong! Haha without me.
But it's not a big deal. They can um, OMG BUY ME STUFF HAHAHAHAAHAHHAHA,
Good good good.
:D :D :D :D

Will get the HSJ photobook in Kino on Tuesday, if if if it's still available. Hopefully. Otherwise I'll just get magazines.

I wanna learn something, properly. Yoga was kind of okay but not really yoga.
Still, I don't expect much.

I shall leave.

<3

I do not want to be a vindictive person, but being vindictive feels good sometimes, right?
Why do people like things that are bad for them?

New Moon is a lot of (emotional, intense?) silences and very pretty people and rather good camerawork (well, I think so anyway). And abs.
I think I like it a lot only because there is a lot more Taylor Lautner (or Jacob) in it than that zombie of a Robert Pattinson, who is blood deprived.

There is nothing beautiful about walking death -.-
Even Jasper has more blood in him! He's paler than all of the Cullens combined.
Grahhhhhhh.

Okay but whatever. It has awakened the Twilight um, appreciation in me, if you can call it that.
I like Dakota Fanning in Twilight, she's grown up well (: I LIKE HER A LOT MORE NOW. And her brother is kind of cute though in google and normal make-up he's not that good-looking.

I just spent three paragraphs on Twilight! :D

You're Beautiful is so cuteeeeee <33
The ending was kinda abrupt, but sweet. Sweet! (:

Haha yes I am such a recluse!

-_-

I am going to watch New Moon, tonight. With my mum.
You know, I watched Twilight with my mum too. SHUT UP.

I am only watching because Taylor Lautner is cute cute cute! He's like Daesung, in America. :D And for everything people say about Robert Pattinson, I've liked him since he was Cedric Diggory, so.
(x

Though I still think Edward Cullen is retarded.
Hoho.

Yesterday was fun. Lidan is always fun. (: I LOVE YOU.

Okay she's flying to China soon, and I'm flying to Thailand so I won't see her until the 16th?
Ahh. ):

Anyway, yesterday made me realise things! Or not really, life has made me realise things. I keep realising things, probably belatedly. I think I'm more immature than everyone else around me D: D: D: Same with my brother.
I don't think it has anything to do with being a end-of-year baby, right? ><

Gah.

Life is scary.
Life is fun. Life is full of beautiful things and people and moments, all so different but equally beautiful in their own right. I suppose it's the scariness of things that will make it beautiful.

I feel really inexperienced! ): Fifteen is so young, but in a way I'm glad I don't have to be responsible as an adult yet. Yet.
I guess I'm just hoping I'll grow into it nicely, and enjoy myself along the way. Is that all we can ask from life?
I AM ANTICIPATING IT.

I guess. I have this tendency to ramble a lot these days, forgive me.

AISH. AISH. AISH.

Sometimes I wish I could be less rational and be more impulsive. Okay not that I am not impulsive (SHOPPING) but it would be nice to think less about things in a while.
Perhaps I am seeing things wrong. Perhaps. Is there a way to see things right?

But 2009 has been a good year. I have grown, that much is true. Later than others, but at least I grew a little (I think taller, too ><) and I can say that I am more mature than a 2008 me. Thank you, people in my life, for letting me enjoy 2009. In a general sense, I suppose.
Everything's less serious and you learn to appreciate more in retrospect, right?

I am such a lucky, lucky person. Sometimes I think about what if I wasn't so lucky. Sometimes I feel bad to be so lucky, because other people are not as lucky.
The best you can do is to be grateful, and pass it on, I guess.

Rambling, rambling. Sometimes I wish I could organise my thoughts a little better, but then life wouldn't be fun, right? Life wouldn't be fun if it was organised.

I love you guys. Everyone. I am afraid to name names because it'd take me three hours, and even them I might leave out someone because there's too many people I'm grateful for. Sometimes I take them for granted, but right now I'm just thankful. And if I do take you for granted, slap me, and shake me so I'll wake up. I wouldn't ask you to forgive me, but I'm hoping you would and I promise I'll do my best to never let that happen.

Okay you probably need to read that paragraph fifty times to understand it.
Uhhhh.

LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. <333

Also, I have a CRUSH now. Not Angie's kind of crush but a, crush.
Not that any of you know him, but I'd just put that out there. (:

Was fun. It's too much to blog on all of the trip, but I enjoyed myself thoroughly, and I didn't even once get homesick.
I GAINED 2 KG DDD:

You don't want to know my weight now zomg.

Okay, that aside. Thailand trip is on so yay me :D :D :D Briefing laterr. :D

Eh.

Highlights of the trip were:

1. ROOMIES! Angie and Eugenia <33 From matching bracelets to late-night talking to awesome phototaking sessions to shoppingshopping to starbucks to pretty much everything (: They are the love. I think nobody else would have put up with me ahaha. Yay. And we missed you Teckteck <33
2. Pretty scenery, like, everywhere. 50% of my photos are scenery shots. (:
3. Getting to visit the elementary school! CUTE KIDS. High school was more meh but I saw a Koyama/Hikaru lookalike and stalked him :D In retrospect he looks nothing like them. ):
4. Singing songs on the bus, like karaoke (which was a bit fail) and probably Avril Lavigne? Complicated and My Happy Ending, it felt like reminiscing primary school years (:
I am not very coherent now if you can tell.
5. Bus trips, in which I got to witness the craziness/oddity of 314 that I kept mentioning to Charlotte. Who simply smiles and acknowledges it COOLLY LIKE THE COOL CHARLOTTE SHE IS :D
6. Candids. I am addicted to candids! D:
7. Taiwanese food? Most of it was good. A lot of chinese-style meals and I was a bit sick by the fourthday or so but okay, quite yummy. BBQ :D
8. 314 314 314! My classmates are darling. From really cute people that I want to pat on the head all the time, to crazy people that never fail to make me laugh, to people who are quiet but always there to help you out (: That's my class. LOVELY 314. I shall have to dedications soon but not now. (:
9. No parents. HEHEHE.
10. Breakfast! Mantous everyday, yum.
11. THE FARM IS AWESOME. I want to go there for my honeymoon! Assuming it's in Asia. Actually no I'd rather go to Japan, but we can stop by Taiwan hahaha.
12. SHOPPING. SHOES. JACKETS (?) You should see the look on my parents' faces when I showed them my buys. (:
(SIDE NOTE: MY PARENTS ARE FREAKING WEIRDDDDD. LIKE REALLY WEIRD. In a kind of good way and I still love them, but I am beginning to suspect aliens abducted them and replaced them, because parents are NOT supposed to act like this. Nobody's parents act like this!!!!! Elaborate later.)
13. Funny thing: They have floor 13 but no floor 4 in every hotel. Okay not really funny, just a note? Ah.
14. Music and bookstores, even though I didn't really get to look at it much. But I got Mei-chan no Shitsuji's manga, 5 I think and it's the one with Kento so yay. Shibata is creepy shit anyway HE IS TWICE HER AGE AND TWICE HER SIZEEEEEEE. Ew.
15. I caught up on my Korean songs (:
16. Fangirling, even though it's not really a highlight because I do it everyday, but eh, whatever (I have caught up with latest JE fanfiction too ahhahahaha I have a favourite pairing now but okay now I sound like a rabid fangirl, shutting up NOW.) HARUMA <3 and I realised GD is not handsome at all. -_- He's kind of ugly. But okay I still like him because he's G-Dragon, just that now I find his face a little more strange.

Okay okay enough, maybe? I am excited for next year, WSC (hopefully) and GYLC, and SEC 4! Also there will be a MUN at the start of the year which will be kinda fun?
I think it's funny how I always go for this kind of strange things and the people around me are like whatever, but it just proves that friends need personalities that complement each other, not be completely alike.
I would not be able to stand myself, just saying. Or I would ignore myself.
Lol.

Okay bye.

My parents watch unsubbed versions of YB because they are so in love with the show they need it like two hours after it airs in Korea.
PARENTS. Like PLURAL.
Yeah. And they have other weird behaviour that I will not say because it jeopardises privacy haha but nevermind, they got me my air tickets to bangkok and chiang rai (:
Am going Christmas shopping there too :D Tell me if you want anything.

Yup bye for real, need to dry my hair and shit.
LALA BYE.

Oh oh Leeteuk is cute! He is not weird.
Supergirl is sticking in my head.